thought about finding religion somewhere. for a few minutes. gave up. didn't even try because i figured i couldn't find it anymore. like a forgotten necklace i lost years ago. i don't wear jewelry. things are working so i don't need a miracle. it should be saved for someone who really needs that one in a million. maybe the sixty year old woman playing the lottery. the one eating canned beets, watching television on one of those lazy boygirl sofa things.